Journal Entry: Wed Apr 8, 2015, 6:34 AM
It seems to be that in our life times we all experience heart ache in some form or another. Mom leaves Dad, Dad leaves Mom, Boyfriend dumps Girlfriend, Girlfriend dumps boyfriend, Bullying at school, outcast status, abuse, loneliness, etc… When we go through these tough situations it is hard to contain your emotions, to bottle them up and pretend you are happy. You feel cheated, and there is this gnawing sense of unfairness deep down. You wish you could change it somehow, to manipulate the past or present in a way that will make the future take a turn for the better, but you can't. I speak from experience when I talk about feeling lost in a broken hearted world. I've had family separate, wasted dreams, and much more. I've tried to fill my wound, to sew my broken heart back together and heal it, but nothing worked. Then I met Jesus. Hear me out, I am not writing this to shove the Bible down your throat, I won't even quote scripture. I just want to let all of you who take the time to read this that it was only Jesus who could sew my broken heart back together. You can fill your emptiness with the internet, drugs, parties, fantasies, and whatever else and it will numb your pain for a while, but the only thing that will give purpose to this futile life is Jesus. When I am following that guy I feel so complete and loved beyond words. I don't need anyone else's approval or validation. I don't need watchers, favorites, likes, or comments. You can rant about how you don't like this post and that's completely okay with me, in fact I encourage you to do so. When will you stop running from one addiction to the next? I decided I was sick of it four years ago and, while life is still hard and even sometimes harder with Jesus, it is so much easier to know that I always have someone there for me to guide me through this Hell of life.